The first time I noticed pink was a pink scarf tied around a post. Then I was playing handball today and a small pink balloon just popped out of nowhere and one of the players just stepped on it and popped it. Then walking down the street somehow every woman I walked past had a pink shirt on. It was strange, perhaps I am reading too much into it.

But I still want to know what it could mean. Since I have been meditating a lot on my chakras; I am linking the pink to  my root chakra which is represented by the color red. The root chakra is located in the reproductive organs around the pelvic area. The color pink is a tint of the color red. The root chakra is very much related to the balancing of the physical body and being grounded. When the energies of the root chakra does not flow properly it affects the legs, bones, adrenal glands, colon, kidneys and spinal column. Ironically I have been having digestive and stomach problems lately and I must admit it has been caused by unhealthy eating habits. More specifically refined white sugar and flour. Perhaps the pink is a calling for me to start taking better care of my body and what I eat; that I NEED to balance my physical system.

Writing down your desires manually imprints the desire into your subconscious and quiets down the negative ego mind. But how long does it take until you see results and also how would you know if you accidentally blocked or negated what you desire with random negative thoughts?….Perhaps just wait around and see if you will see results?

The biggest thing I manifested was my condo I bought last year and one which I enjoy very much presently. It took approximately 8 months for it to come true; although I think it could have manifested faster if I had not sunk into negative thoughts when I stumbled into obstacles.

The most basic thing I did was to follow through the example in the Secret. After I visited the condo and determined it was the one I wanted, I went home and wrote my full name with the new address of the condo. It was a medium size paper and I wrote my address over and over again as if I already lived at that place. Then I held on to that paper and kept it where I can see it often to remind myself.

What was supposed to be a fast and quick deal because everything on my part was ready; me and my real estate agent kept meeting some obstacles one way or another. At some point we even heard that the condo was sold to another person; then they came around and was still available. After a frustrating roller coaster; the dream finally came true on August of 2008 and I moved into my new house a month later.

The hardest part for me was to stay put and be patient and not be bothered by distracting events and stay on course with the initial manifestation. So I realize writing what you desire also persuades your ego mind and penetrates to your subconscious thus the Universe starts to make it happen. The hardest part is waiting without complaining and worrying…..

So I had mentioned in my previous post that meditation is helping me stay in the present moment. The old saying “stop and smell the roses” pretty much describes this event. I think most of us get into this state accidentally because we are always tied up in our cognitive mind with psychological time frame. This concept I learned from Deepak Chopra’s Synchrodestiny book. Psychological time is  a mind state where we are either living in the past or worrying about the future, thus eliminating the present moment. Our bodies are in the present moment but our mind is elsewhere creating havoc for the present moment. If we apply the Law of Cause and Effect, the “cause” would be whatever thought we have pertaining to what we did in the past or what we plan to do in the future and the “effect” is the resulting feeling, situation and state we PRESENTLY live with.

This idea completely blew my mind, because I realized that my mind is mostly in the past or in the future. The past always included what i should have done and why did certain things and the future always entailed uncertainty and worry about my future actions. Which of course would not come to fruition if I don’t pay attention to the present.

So I simply started monitoring my thoughts and mind by being aware of this psychological state of time that plays tricks with my present moment of happiness. Whenever I start to get worried, I track that thought to it’ source and eliminate the worry by telling myself that i am in the past or the future. This has been effective for me because once  realize this I focus my thoughts on my surroundings, people and activities I am doing. No matter how mundane the activity is I focus my mind and body to be present, recognizing how i feel and how my body feels.

Ultimately, my goal is to also use the Law of Allowing to come through with future plans. I want to co create with the universe, instead of trying to control everything that might or might not happen. I realize that co creating means I have to listen to the signs, intuition and messages sent forth from the Universe. This has been interesting because the only way for me to communicate with the higher Universe is if I am in the present moment. If my mind is in a psychological state of past or the future, my feelings and emotions are blocked by these thoughts because your body never knows if you are actually doing or imagining so it will only follow through with what the mind commands. So I am practicing being in the present and I have to admit I am having a lot more fun and people are also enjoying my company. People commented that I am glowing with positive energy! which is an awesome compliment.

During my meditation I use my breathing to get into a calmer physical state and less noisy mind state. I got into total absence of thought only few times in few seconds, then back to some kind of background noises of small thoughts. I focused on activating all my chakras throughout my body because I believe that chakra opening enables the body to open up for energy giving and receiving. But also just being aware of my chakras led me to an unexpected side effect.

My sex improved! I feel slightly more alive and tingly during sex, especially around the sex organs. I didn’t know it was happening; i just thought it was one of the good sex sessions. But more and more the evidence is mounting and sex is better than before. No way am I completely sexually liberated; but i think meditation will take me there.

But all this has to do with activating the sexual energy chakra during meditation. I still want to see myself feeling and interacting with my intuition in clearer way though. But for now I am happy that I tracked my sexual energy awareness and it’s increase .

I was not aware of this law when i used to use the law of attraction to attract money. Plus i had a lot of mistaken beliefs about money and wealth.

I used to think that rich people had it easy and that i didn’t think they worked hard for their money. (Now I walk down an expensive house with fancy cars and I applaud the person who reached this material wealth because I know this person has worked well with the laws of the universe and deserve all the material wealth they can hold.)

I used to think that there was someone in the sky making a list of worthy people who should receive money and wealth. Not a Santa Claus or God, just the Universe’s way of distribution. But I realize  this is false belief. Universe is always unbiased and works with mathematical precision and supported and generated by our inner thoughts.

YOU WILL NEVER LET YOURSELF HAVE MORE MONEY THAN YOU THINK YOU DESERVE. For me, it rings true. Sometimes I feel a lot of guilt and apprehension about receiving large sums of money. But now I realize I have to accept with gratitude and share the wealth…thus the LAW of Circulation.

Law of Circulation states that we must give the very thing we want in order to receive it. If we want love, then we should give love, if we want respect then we should give respect and if we want money then we should give and share money WITHOUT holding back.

I used to be very uneasy when I would purchase expensive items I wanted, sometimes even cringe if I feel that I have went over my budget. This holding back and anxiety in giving out and sharing money is bad for the law of circulation. Now when I go shopping or someone asks for a loan I give freely and within myself I know that the money will come back to me in one way or other. I trust this belief simply because the more you give out, the more you give in. The feeling while you give out is important; the Universe will recognize that money has a value for you but it does not define who you are and thus reward you for helping along the Law of Circulation. Having trust in the Universe means letting go of worry. Worrying = Doubt…and it’s bad for attracting things we want. Doubt and worry is always crowded with what if and negative thought patterns we need to stop allowing into our consciousness.

Even if you don’t have money to give out or barely make ends meet, it is still possible to share and give and never hold back from giving. Even if it is your neighbor asking for a cup of sugar or that annoying relative asking for loans. When I give out I always remember that at some point in my life I could be in a situation of needing help and I would like that there are people who can help me.

Once you are a confident giver, you will start to see unexpected gifts and such things coming your way. Accept anything that is good for you; never deny a gift whether it is a compliment, someone smiling at you or someone paying for your lunch. Don’t resist the gift and downplay how you feel; just accept and be grateful. By accepting you are also helping the giver with their abundance and circulation. You don’t want to block the circulation for yourself or for others so learn to accept things freely and with openness and say “Thank You”. If you receive things you can’t use, give it to someone who can.

Of course use common sense and judgment and put limitations if you feel that you are being reckless with money. That has to do with self control and having sound beliefs about money in general. The whole idea in embracing the law of circulation is to have trust and faith that what you give out with good intentions and care will come back to you in unexpected and amazing ways.  If you are afraid to give out and hoard your money, you will not experience inflow.

“Only those who know that they already have can have more.”

I categorized the advices we get from others into 3 categories and I want to start from the Okay advice.

1. We always run to the people we are closest to in times of need, help or support because we assume that they know us best and they have the best of our intentions. This is true; but even though they mean well they don’t always give the best of advices. A good example is your parents; they are always worried about you and they feel the need to help by giving advice that they think is best. Of course this is always a frustrating experience because you end up with advices that are always geared toward ‘Don’t do this, or Don’t do that, and make sure to do this…” to that effect. It sounds like warnings and not to do list. This is annoying to say the least because you end up feeling more confused; perhaps even fearful because they raised more issues that you didn’t consider before. A good way to know if an advice of this sort is coming your way is to examine your relationship with them and “feel out” the advice and ask “Is this advice dead on or insightful and attempt to address my issue?”. Almost always you will get an answer right away from your gut telling if this advice is worth a salt. This may come from many well meaning sources such as your peers and friends, but always use your judgment and think critically if their advice had any positive effects on your core issue. This is also a good indicator of testing out your friendships, but I will write about that on another post.

2. Then you have the very bad advice. The advice that is empty, vague, almost sounds cliche. An advice that attempts to answer your questions with a generalized answer we always hear in inspirational posters or t-shirts. For example; a guy is having issues with his girlfriend and he goes to one of his buddies for advice. After some time explaining the problem and how he feels about the issue; his friend would saying to the effect of “well, all women do that…don’t worry about it, it’s a woman thing,”.  This completely misses the mark; not only would you feel like the other person didn’t listen but the extent of insight or thoughtful reflection on the issue is missing. Also a good indicator is that bad advice is always negatively based or focuses on negative attributes. You can always tell by the person’s body language as well, no direct eye contact, an uncomfortable pause before they speak or an insincere tone in their voice or “fakeness”. If you pay attention to any of these signs; the advice is bad and thank the person and move on.

3. The best advice is one of truthfulness, compassion and understanding. I have gotten excellent advice from strangers I just met than my family members I grew up with. Good advice is hard to come by but in case you got lucky and got an excellent advice; here are some tips to consider. Most people take their time explaining their issues or problems to the prospective adviser, so the first clue is that the adviser listened. REALLY LISTENED, instead of just hearing on the surface. They look you into your eyes and try to understand where you might be coming from. This bonding is almost always emotional; they may also recount their personal experience that relates to yours. The adviser may take their time answering or telling you their opinion, but when they do it is insightful and may present areas you overlooked and give you an “aha” moment”. These are good indicators that the person is really trying to help with your issue best they can. This again may come from strangers or unlikely sources and might not always be your closest friends and family so keep an open heart. Also be aware of advice that maybe be presented in a blunt or sharp manner but the advice is still honest and helpful; don’t pay attention to the delivery too much. Some people are not best at giving advice in soothing and therapeutic manner but they still have great insight.

It’s important to question the integrity of advices because you never want to follow advices or ideas presented by others if you don’t feel comfortable with them. Then you are being indirectly influenced and not staying true to yourself or your intuitive feelings.

In the beginning of this blog, I mentioned that I get a strong urge to find an answer to my problems right away. But almost always this never happens; instead i get little pieces of information, intuitive insight, a nagging message that all add up to help me make decisions and better understand the situation. I end up putting all the pieces together and rationally analyzing it. After this rational analysis; i test it out through my gut and my emotions. If it doesn’t pass through the intuition well, then I reconsider my decision all over again.

My personal number for the month of July is the Number 7.

I derived at this number by adding my personal year cycle number which is 27/9. I got to 27/9 by adding the year of my last birthday which was 2008. So I add as following 2008= 2+0+0+8=10 Then you add the month and date of your birthday to this 10. I am born on October 7th so I add the following 10+7+10=27/9  Lastly just add 2+7 to get 9. All this is my personal year number from 2008 to 2009. But I want to know the specific number for the month of July so I do the following:

take 27 and add the month of July which is 7. You get 34/7 – the 7 is by adding the 34=3+4

Each month has different energies so I am always curious to see my underlining energy for the month so for example if the month ahead entails a lot of socializing and activities; I would then consider throwing a party or focus on my socializing abilities. I just find it a good heads up so I am not so confused about my daily activities and general energy and mood of the month.

This year for me entails the temporary energy of the number 9. Numerology runs from 1 to 9 because life cycles are recycled every 9 years.

The 9 represents endings, transition, charity, friendships and wisdom. I can’t personally wait for this year to be over and begin anew with a new life cycle because this year has been hard as I felt that I am learning so many lessons back to back without any breaks. Even though the overall energy of the year for me is focused on the energy of the 9; i like to narrow down to the month’s energy.

July for me is all about the energy of the 7 which represents rest, physical completion, perfection, health and analysis. It is a period of retreat and may feel tired as usual and not want to socialize. A time to be alone to think, meditate, reflect and retreat within ones self. This is a good heads up for me because I led a busy schedule in the last few months and I feel within my body the need to slow down and relax. Also I take it very seriously when my health is in question and if i need to pay special attention to it.

All this numerology stuff is always individual based and derived from the person’s birthday and the their full names. Anyone can find the basic understanding with a introductory book or just googling it. Just know that the numbers are always specific to each person.

She loves the little dog beach they have. Since she is in heat every male dog is doing their best to hump her one way or another.

So Jon told me while he watched Hazel play; a butterfly landed on his chest area. It was a brown and simple looking and Jon stood still as to not disturb it as it peered up at Jon’s face almost as if saying something quietly. They stood there staring at each other; the butterfly did not move much and stayed almost two minutes straight then flew away. Jon recounted this experience and said that he did not really feel the butterfly fly away until a moment later. I thought this was a very odd and interesting experience because for one butterflies symbolize change, transition, new life from the old and sometimes even luck if you analyze it’s specific features.

Later in the morning we received news from Jon’s family member that there were some strife and disagreements at his grandmother’s house. Some angry and insensitive actions were created by Jon’s younger brother and family was at it’s separating point. This situation has been going on for a long time so it was nothing new to us; except Jon always felt a sense of duty to his family even when he lived separate from them. His mother called in an emotional state asking him to “fix” or at least figure things out. I thought perhaps this was an opportunity for him to bring his shattered family together through calm means and sensitive talking to all parties involved.

Nonetheless I thought the butterfly was a positive and calm messenger signaling to Jon that he has an opportunity to bring back his family together. Even if the separation occurs in the family; the butterfly signaled the inevitable change and transitions we all have to face whether we like it or not.

I always thought car accidents foretold a situation in a person’s life. Whenever I saw a car accident or was part of a car accident I wondered deep within if I am in a situation of being victimized, hurt or just plain overwhelmed or being pushed around by others. Sometimes it may not be directed to my life specifically but almost always someone I know could be in such a situation.

Late Sunday evening; Jon came home and announced that we were invited to a small barbecue at his brother’s girlfriend’s house. Since I was starving to say the least; I enthusiastically got dressed and we were on our way to Queens. On our way there, our ride was smooth and without traffic except for a little bumper to bumper action we witnessed as we zoomed by. It was a classic bumper hit; nothing life threatening but enough to cause the car’s hood to pop open and it was clear that the car was tailgating until the car in front of him stopped shortly.

I didn’t think much of it and enjoyed my time at the barbecue with most of the people I knew. We went home around eleven and got home safe and slept soundly. The next morning Jon got a call from a girl that was at the barbecue that his friend was beaten and mugged late last night while coming home. It was bad enough that he was in the hospital and was all bruised up. I was saddened by the incident but the car accident we witnessed did not pop into my head right away. Then slowly when I started to think about it all the witnessed accident came into my mind and I somehow felt that it was a sign of foretelling.

Back few months ago I was curious about the whole blogging thing. Seems that everyone had one and I wanted one!

It occurred to me that I need to have something informative or partially worthwhile to say in my blogs. But knowing myself I didn’t want to just talk about topics that has no lifespan or interest to others or myself. Until recently my life has taken an interesting turn into an intuitive journey. Perhaps in a bigger terms I am getting in touch with my spirituality; although I do not subscribe to any organized religion I did come from a culture that was entrenched in spiritual rituals and superstition to say the least.

I would like to invite you to join me in my journey into finding and discovering my intuition, life goals and surprise guidance sent forth from a higher Universe. I want to use this blog to share my personal experiences in hopes that it will at least entertain you or make you think about your own experiences and recognize that we are all connected.